The balance of pursuing my own dreams while ensuring that I'm fulfilling my most important roles as wife and Mother can be a little challenging at times. When am I doing too much in one specific area? When am not doing enough in another?
First of all, I know that God does care about our individual dreams and goals. I know that even if He wouldn't care otherwise, He cares simply because WE care. He loves us. He's our father and wants us to be happy. However, I also know that God knows what's going to make us happiest in the end. And I also know that personal goals can be distractions and ways that we are led away from what is most important in life.
So how DO we balance it?
I can't even begin to claim that I have those answers, but when pondering these questions in life, the best insights I feel that I can receive are spoken by my Savior. His words are reminders that help put everything into perspective:
19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and thieves break through and steal;
20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. ... 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
(Matthew Chapter 6, Emphasis added)
Another insight that comes to mind is from a talk that was given in my congregation at church 2 weeks ago. It was about the Parable of the Talents found also in Matthew, chpt. 25. In the parable, three different servants are given a certain number of talents from their master. One servant was given 1 talent, another 2, and the other 5. The master went away for a time, and then returned to get account of what his servants had done with the talents given to them.
Two of the three servants used their talents to trade and ended up doubling the amount of talents they had. The other servant, who only had one talent, was fearful and buried it. To the two servants who used and grew their talents, the master was well-pleased, saying "Well done thou good and faithful servant". To the servant who buried his talent, the master was not pleased and took the talent away all together.
The speaker went on to say that one day, we will all be held accountable before God for the talents WE have been given. That God expects us to use and develop our talents and gifts to help others. And that's what hit me: God wants us to use our talents to serve others.
So in conclusion, here's what I'm working towards in the balance of my own aspirations and my responsibilities to God: